Sunday, November 29, 2015

Hills vs Sand- It's all a matter of perspective

Yesterday I worked 15 hours. I left the house at 6am and didn't return till 11:30pm. Didn't see the girls awake at all but gave them kisses when I got home. UOPX for 8 hours and the Gap for 7 hours. My only spare time I had was my 30 min drive from one job to the other and of course my breaks. Most people would think that that sounds like a horrible day and would really suck but I thought the oppsite. I remember thinking on my way home I was ready for bed because I was tired but yet I was fully energized. As I thought about it it was because I knew how awesome today ended up being. Work is work but that is just what my family needs right now. I am so blessed to have 2 jobs that allow me to support my family. The Lord has made it possible for us to get through yet another trial with so many blessings.

I was reminded of the saying "I can do hard things". I really learned this saying to be true on Trek. I remember being physically exhausted thinking I couldn't take 10 more steps just to turn the corner to find a hill to climb before we could rest. Then once we rested we pressed on only to find DEEP sand up ahead. Then after the sand another hill. After the sand that next hill was not so bad any more.

I know the next few months will be tiring and exhausting and I'm sure there are going to be more problems to solve, hills to climb, and sand to trudge through. However,  I know that blessings come even in trials, because I notice them daily! I know that He has a purpose for all our trials and they are to strength us so we can be stronger to get through the next. One day I will look back on this trial and think man that was a small hill to climb! I am so truly blessed to support my family and feel the love and encouragement from them to keep going and pressing on.

Monday, November 9, 2015

The 3rd Miller is on his or her way

Getting pregnant with baby number 3 has been a long awaited experience. We had been trying for a long time compared to Maggie and Zoey. We starting trying in beginning of 2013. Brit says it's because I was training for my 1/2 marathon and that messed everything up. Which it very well could have been but it's crazy to think because it was the healthiest I have ever been. Even after I stopped running I we still didn't get pregnant which was frustrating for me. However, it was a good experience to talk about it with the girls, pray about it and fast about it. It really helped show the girls that the Lord does answer prayers but it will be when the time is right not exactly when we want. It's a good reminder that everything is in the Lord's time and not ours.  One of sweetest moments of going through this experience is when the girls would pray for a baby. One time I caught Maggie praying the the corner of our hotel room asking Heavenly Father to bless us with a baby so she can share a room with Zoey. It's wonderful to see how all of our testimonies have grown having struggled with this for a while. I know that 2 years is short compared to some and know that we are blessed with 3 gifts from God. This is such a tender topic and know to some degree how painful it is for others. I only have compassion and love for others that struggle with this trial.

This trial is hard to cope with because it's so good and what the Lord asks of us. I have learned that the Lord is not withholding blessings from us in our times of need but helping us develop our faith and encouraging us to draw nearer to Him and to each other in these trying times. 

A lot of people ask if we are hoping for a boy since we have 2 girls. I find this to be an offensive trick question that Satan has come up with to try and diminish the sweet experience of having a baby. It does not matter the sex of a child. I know that Heavenly Father will send the one that is meant to be with our family. I only hope he or she is healthy and strong. Regardless of girl or boy I will love him or her. I will do everything I am capable of raising him or her to know that they are a Child of God and to help them on their path back to their Eternal Father in heaven. These children are not mine and I can't be selfish to think that they are. I know that I promised to help many of my bother and sisters to return to our Heavenly home and I can only pray that I do the best I am capable of with the Lord's help. My family is perfect as it is because it is just what the Lord sent.