Sunday, November 29, 2015

Hills vs Sand- It's all a matter of perspective

Yesterday I worked 15 hours. I left the house at 6am and didn't return till 11:30pm. Didn't see the girls awake at all but gave them kisses when I got home. UOPX for 8 hours and the Gap for 7 hours. My only spare time I had was my 30 min drive from one job to the other and of course my breaks. Most people would think that that sounds like a horrible day and would really suck but I thought the oppsite. I remember thinking on my way home I was ready for bed because I was tired but yet I was fully energized. As I thought about it it was because I knew how awesome today ended up being. Work is work but that is just what my family needs right now. I am so blessed to have 2 jobs that allow me to support my family. The Lord has made it possible for us to get through yet another trial with so many blessings.

I was reminded of the saying "I can do hard things". I really learned this saying to be true on Trek. I remember being physically exhausted thinking I couldn't take 10 more steps just to turn the corner to find a hill to climb before we could rest. Then once we rested we pressed on only to find DEEP sand up ahead. Then after the sand another hill. After the sand that next hill was not so bad any more.

I know the next few months will be tiring and exhausting and I'm sure there are going to be more problems to solve, hills to climb, and sand to trudge through. However,  I know that blessings come even in trials, because I notice them daily! I know that He has a purpose for all our trials and they are to strength us so we can be stronger to get through the next. One day I will look back on this trial and think man that was a small hill to climb! I am so truly blessed to support my family and feel the love and encouragement from them to keep going and pressing on.

Monday, November 9, 2015

The 3rd Miller is on his or her way

Getting pregnant with baby number 3 has been a long awaited experience. We had been trying for a long time compared to Maggie and Zoey. We starting trying in beginning of 2013. Brit says it's because I was training for my 1/2 marathon and that messed everything up. Which it very well could have been but it's crazy to think because it was the healthiest I have ever been. Even after I stopped running I we still didn't get pregnant which was frustrating for me. However, it was a good experience to talk about it with the girls, pray about it and fast about it. It really helped show the girls that the Lord does answer prayers but it will be when the time is right not exactly when we want. It's a good reminder that everything is in the Lord's time and not ours.  One of sweetest moments of going through this experience is when the girls would pray for a baby. One time I caught Maggie praying the the corner of our hotel room asking Heavenly Father to bless us with a baby so she can share a room with Zoey. It's wonderful to see how all of our testimonies have grown having struggled with this for a while. I know that 2 years is short compared to some and know that we are blessed with 3 gifts from God. This is such a tender topic and know to some degree how painful it is for others. I only have compassion and love for others that struggle with this trial.

This trial is hard to cope with because it's so good and what the Lord asks of us. I have learned that the Lord is not withholding blessings from us in our times of need but helping us develop our faith and encouraging us to draw nearer to Him and to each other in these trying times. 

A lot of people ask if we are hoping for a boy since we have 2 girls. I find this to be an offensive trick question that Satan has come up with to try and diminish the sweet experience of having a baby. It does not matter the sex of a child. I know that Heavenly Father will send the one that is meant to be with our family. I only hope he or she is healthy and strong. Regardless of girl or boy I will love him or her. I will do everything I am capable of raising him or her to know that they are a Child of God and to help them on their path back to their Eternal Father in heaven. These children are not mine and I can't be selfish to think that they are. I know that I promised to help many of my bother and sisters to return to our Heavenly home and I can only pray that I do the best I am capable of with the Lord's help. My family is perfect as it is because it is just what the Lord sent.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Robin going to the temple

I never wrote down my thoughts and feelings the day I went through the temple just because I still did't feel comfortable talking about it and didn't know what was and what was not allowed to be shared. I remember being pregnant and uncomfortable for a few hours but that had nothing to do with he temple. It was also the day I got sealed and so everything was just all rolled into one crazy day. I do remember having Uncle Dave and Aunt Kelli playing a special part and how special that was for me. If I would have picked a couple in it would have been them. Good thing it was in Heavenly Fathers hands and he knew just what I needed.

I have now been endowed for 10 years and understand much more than when I went through for the first time. I had the wonderful opportunity to be a part of Robin's special day by being her escort.I have never been so excited for to go to the temple or to have someone go through the temple and it was just perfect in every way. I think it is because I knew how special it was and was so excited for her to take the next steps to draw closer to Heavenly Father and understanding his perfect plan for us. It has just been a wonderful experience to help her along her conversion process and be a part of each step in that process. I have never been so close to someone to be able to testify each time I talk to her of the blessings of the gospel. Doing this has strengthened my own testimony and helped me grow even more.

One special thing about that day was that she found lots of family names and we have been doing their work to prepare them for endowments. So on the day that she went through all of the ward members that were there to support her did  a family name for Robin. Robin might be a convert and not have any family here on this earth that is a member but on this day she had over 15 family members get endowed with her in addition to the love and support that she had from the ward.

The best way I can describe everything is that the gospel is so "SWEET". That term has a new meaning and I have a deeper understing as to why the gospel is compared to fruit. It's just the best way to describe the gospel.

I loved every minute of everything with Robin. FHE lessons together, missionary discussions, baptism follow up lessons, baptism temple trips, late night talks, life lessons learned the hard way, temple prep classes, general conference talks, and just a great friendship. I loved being a part of it. It's not wonder we are encouraged to have every member a missionary because it is an awesome experience.

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Lost Dutchman 1/2 Matathon

It's always been a thought in my mind to do a marathon. However, I knew the reality of actually doing one was something else. I can't pinpoint why I decided or when I committed but it was a combination of wanting to get more fit, lose weight and complete the 1/2 marathon.

I started off with a training plan and did awesome the first few weeks. Some of my Disneyland trips messed up my training but walking around Disney was part of my endurance training. :) The big hurdle that I had to get over was the training and prep for the 10k at Thanksgiving. It required me to stay on my track so I could hit my 6 mile run in 4 weeks. This left very little room to miss training. Thank you Lindsay for the motivation! It was tough doing all my training in through the holidays but it helped me stay healthy. I did my 10k in 1 hour and 15 mins. This was my longest race ever! From there the training was fairly easy. I got over the big hurdle and then it was just a matter of doing it! Brit was a big help always kicking me out the door to go run; sometimes he would even ride a bike along side me. Music helped motivate me and quite, alone time, just thinking was enjoyable too. I have to say running in the winter in Arizona is awesome! I can't imagine running in colder weather. The training was not too bad. I fell quite a few times, had a few injures and was fairly sore all the time!

I ran my first ever half marathon on Sunday. It was AWESOME! I ran the Lost Dutchman half which was near Superstition Mountains. It was a beautiful day! I got to watch the sunrise, and then there was a light cloud cover that make the run perfect! The course had a few rolling hills but it was fairly flat with only 341 feet of elevation change. Normally my first mile is my slowest but this time it was my fastest. It must have been the adrenaline. Mile 9,10, and 11 were the absolute worst! I started to feel the pain... shin splints kicked in, my right foot felt like it had been stung by a bee and my plantar fasciitis was hurting on my left foot. Then at mile 12 the first marathon runner ran past me and a huge wave of adrenaline hit me that caused me to have a small anxiety attack. It was crazy! Then my legs just kicked in and started to move faster. I was so happy to turn the corner and see the end in sight but it made it so much better to see my girls running toward me and excited for me. I'll admit I had tears streaming down my face. They ran along with me for a few hundred feet saying, "You can do it Mom", "Keep up the good work Mom"! That motivated me to kick it up for the last 50 yards. I sprinted it out to passed 3 more people and finished with 2 hours and 45 mins. I could have done a faster race but I had a setting on my phone different so I didn't have my mile average notifications. If I did I could have done better. I guess that leaves room for improvement for the next race. :) I would have to say that I this was the best run/race ever because it was so gorgeous!
Everyone is now asking if I will do a full marathon. I have to say at mile 9 I thought, "there is no way in hell I will ever do a full marathon!" I won't completely rule it out but I think that there are definitely more half marathons in my future...once my foot gets better. I also think I'm going to do a trialathlon or dualathlon.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Maggie Riding a Bike

Today was a busy with normal everyday kind of stuff and a milestone for Maggie. Andrew across the street is 8. He hangs out with the girls a lot and goes to school with Zoey. He just got a new bike for Christmas and it had training wheels on it. Today his mom was taking his training wheels off and Maggie decided she wanted hers off too. Always wanting to be with the big kids. So in the middle of cooking dinner we took her training wheels off and she started to ride a two wheel bike. She picked it up super fast just like Zoey. I held on to her for a few times and she would crash because she was checking to see if I was touching her. So I just let her go and she took off ! That girl rode her bike for 2 hours and loved it.

With Zoey being so much older and riding in the street Maggie is having a hard time learning NOT to ride in the street. She is always trying to keep up with the big kids. She told me that the sidewalk made her go in the street and she didn't have a choice. Always something with her!